Friday, September 23, 2011
Don't under estimate misery's blade,
It can teach you to stand,
On one leg.
Don't under estimate disappointment's sting,
It can teach you to hope,
With half a wing.
Don't under estimate grief's torment,
It can teach you to be joyous,
When nothing is left.
Define your life with what you have left,
Not what you have lost.
Monday, September 12, 2011
I am not used to these new boundaries with my health. I can walk up to two miles in a day and the next day I am not in horrible pain that sends me to the couch for days. I am tired a lot and still need some B12 shots. I didn't realize that its common with Celiac to have low B12 and low Iodine. So I have been trying to supplement those and get them from my food. Now that I am homeschooling my son this school year and coaching his soccer team, I can officially say I am doing more than I ever have in 4 years. I keep surprising my family and friends by choosing to walk around town to get places. I have never really been like this and would find a way to get out walking. So I have surprised myself and walking does help bring down the stress. I still have the age old problem of finding time for me. I do have some great support in the homeschooling community and online with my wonderful Lyme friends. It breaks my heart that there are so many people sick. I am getting questions now more and more from parents with kids who were given only two weeks of antibiotics at the initial bite. I am still researching, learning and listening. Sometimes I wonder if it will ever be enough. I am actually starting to see some longevity in my new positive health. I never thought I would be a person who would willingly take so many pills but even with my Lyme pills being downgraded. I still take the basics like multivitamin, probiotic's and so on. I still need good sleep but I think that's more from the higher level of activity than anything else. I still feel like I can move forward but I keep wondering if the Lyme will come back. So far so good. My skin still breaks out quite a lot. I have tried reducing the cow dairy which has helped my stomach. But my skin still isn't recovered yet. The Evening Primrose oil I noticed has calmed the red patches of skin and made my hair more shiny which I like. I don't think all my health problems will just dissolve away with no permanent problems. My hormones are still wacko. I am doing my best to balance them again. I think it will take time to get them back under control. Some of my herbal teas have helped. I have never been one to like tea but the herbal tea has been nice before bed. It has helped me to unwind and sleep a little deeper I think. I will be curious what things will be like in a year from now. I still feel like I am rebuilding my health one brick at a time. I plan to cherish my good health this time instead of taking it for granted.