I started a new protocol a month ago and this had been going well without the antibiotics. I tried to stop some of my adrenal homeopathics and in the end I am flat on my butt as usual all over again. The hands and feet on fire and burning along with my throat. My heart racing when I go up the stairs. My eyes are burning up. I always get sucked into the thought that this battle will be over one day. And I will be better and get to live a normal life. Talk about fantasy land! I have to go back on antibiotics for a while and I will need to buy more adrenal herbs. More money out the window. In the meantime my wonderful 5 year old is driving me crazy with his favorite new trick potty talk. I am worn out, tired and lonely from all of this. I am trying to keep my cool. Its not that easy some days. I know its a normal kid stage but add a sick mom to the mix and it gets crazy! I am trying to rest so we can get out a little tonight. I think my son and I are both feeling the isolation.
Friday, February 11, 2011
May will mark three years since my diagnosis with Lyme disease. I am still trying to get in and see a Lyme aware dentist. I need a cleaning and cavities filled. I am taking lots of vitamins and minerals on the KPU protocol. It seems to be helping slowly. The acne on my face is starting to clean and the pain is starting to lower. If anything I am so tired by supper time and I need some down time every few days. I am proud of myself to have made it this far. I have taken several big steps towards recovery. I just hope I can continue this upward trend. I feel closer to my family and friends and I have learned some key lessons. I doubt the learning will end anytime soon. I can keep up with the housework for once, sortof, and stop to enjoy the little moments with my son. I have some many ideas, dreams and goals. Maybe they have a chance to come true after all.