Showing posts from November, 2012

Paradigm Shift

It wasn't until recently that I realized I've been sick or in pain since age 8. Now at age 35 I am slowly entering into a time of decent health. I keeping thinking should I be doing that? Am I doing too much? It's like my brain is stuck in a different time. I am not used to having a body that can keep up with my passions. I kinda like it but at the same time I don't want to leave my Lyme friends behind. They have been such a great support to me. I still detox quite a lot right now and have a little more Bartonella bugs to kill. Other than the occasional migraine or sleepless night my good days out way my bad now. I feel like I get a redo in my life. To really focus on what I want to do with myself other than homeschooling my son and running a house. I enjoy being an advocate, researching, connecting, grass roots, lady. Now that I look back over the past 4 years of treatment I see the path I've taken and I amazed how far I've come. I am excited to …

Leave me as I am

Leave me as I am
You never cared worth a damn,
You could never see me as I am,

I am never for pity back washes,
I am not for eyes rolling in your head,

Did you ever need me after all,
You seemed quite fine on your own.

I am right here pleading on the floor,
Do you really need me any more,

Don't ask me for you to stay,
Cause your leaving anyway,

I couldn't love you,
As a ghost,
Mirages fade away.

I'm on my knees begging you please,
Leave my broken pieces on the floor,,
Cause I don't need you any more.
No I won't ask you to stay seeings how
You are leavin anyways.
No I won't turn around to say good bye,
I am done chasing ghosts,
I deserve more.