Tuesday, April 19, 2011
I laugh everytime I hear the saying "hurry up to wait". Lyme disease is such a strange disease. One week you do okay, the next can be pretty good and the next you are sitting on the couch. This happens even with a steady regimine of medicine, vitamins, and other supportive therapies. You can try so hard to get back to "normal" and end up gaining very little. Yet in the midst of this internal battle, life goes on with or without you. This push and pull is where I think I find the most frustration. I call it a good when I can be physically active for a few hours and be in pain the next day. You would think by now I would have given up. 3 steps forward and 4 steps back. On and off antibiotics. I hope this is just a season of waiting for a better quality of life. I hold on to this thought. That this too shall pass into the next season of soaring. Its in the valleys that we develope the wings to fly.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
I have been off the antibiotics now for a few months. Other than the fatigue, things seem to be doing okay. The twitches have come off and on. They make me wonder how much permanent damage may already be done. Also keep wondering if it can be fixed. Hubby's been working lots of hours, I've been up and down in my health and my sons social and emotional problems all seemed to get intense this past few weeks. I am glad that the stress level has been brought back down again. And we all have had some good talks with each other too. Now we need to consider what school is best for my son this coming fall. Still doing research but making progress slowly. Its been hard trying to get together with friends. So glad this week is filling up nicely with some alone and adult time for me. I needed to put myself back into my schedual. Now if we can get some family fun time and a date we would be golden. And some more warm temps and sunshine would be nice too!