I've been in Lyme disease treatment now going on six years. I am using my skills for good and I'm an advocate. But what else is there? I am reminded of a time when my acupuncturist told me if you could spend all your energy on getting well and put it into something else what would you do? I am still trying to answer his question. I enjoy helping out other learning patients. I help out with a lime disease support group. I am trying to use my photography to get the word out about Lyme disease but again what else is out there for me? I homeschool my son. I clean my house. I've really enjoyed going to the ocean a lot this summer. Despite some of my down days and not feeling well I've been able to keep up with my friends. But again I ask myself what else is out there for me. I think soul-searching is normal. And I know it 36 there must be other opportunities that I can take a hold of but again what do I want? I know creativity is a big part of who I am. On my good days I start to explore what that means to me. I think what I am needing is new experiences that have never had before I've always been a constant learner. I know Lyme disease will be there in the back room somewhere no matter what I do but I don't want it to define all of me. It's time for me to open up the doors and walk through them. Instead of staring at the door handle. I need new fun memories filled with all that I love my family my son my cats photography art music. I want a life that spills over into the lives of others in a positive way. It's time for me to discover how to do that. Now is the time to move forward no matter what lyme disease does in my life. I can keep waiting for the other shoe to drop or I can just focus on living to the fullest the best I can.